no relief- confession time

My toothache is getting much, much worse. The pain is radiating down my jaw and up into my ear. I can't sleep on that side of my body. The 28 Vicodins the dentist gave me last Tuesday are gone. They've been gone for awhile, actually. I always overdo my pain pills because..well..they make me feel good. I have like 10 tramadols left until my next dr.'s appt on Tuesday...but those might as well be sugar pills. I have about the same amount of Xanax, and I guess I could take all of them and knock myself out but then what good would I be? I have two babies I need to take care of.
I know I have a problem taking my pills the right way. But in my heart of hearts I really don't see it as abusing them in any way. I see it as I NEED them to function. My body just naturally needs more than the recommended dose to get any relief.
So now I'm sitting here twiddling my thumbs and swabbing OraJel all over my mouth, waiting for Tuesday to come. My next appt with my general practitioner. And I hope and pray that he will give me something stronger than Tramadol this time...and I think I'm going to ask him to double my Xanax because I'm on the lowest possible dose and I don't notice much of a difference.
I don't know guys, do I come off sounding like an addict, or do I have a legitimate reason for wanting these pills?

Toothaches and School

Oh guess what, guess what?!? I'm going to go back to school!!!! I start at the local community college in the fall, I want to be an elementary school teacher. More kids, I know, but I think as long as they're not mine they won't annoy me as much...I hope.
Personally I'm about to have 2 less kids if they don't straighten up! My son recently discovered that although he can't get over the gate that blocks off our stairway, he can throw things over it and down the stairs. There is a nice collection of toys, trash, and even some cups down there.
So yesterday I had an emergency dental appt., apparently I have 3 teeth that need to come out because they're absessed, one is also impacted. On top of that I have 2 cavities that need to be filled. I'm thinking of letting them all rot out so I can get dentures and be done with it.....j/k. Kinda.

Moving!

Well, we are moving AGAIN. Donnie and I have been together for 3 yrs, and we've lived in 4 different places...hopefully this one will stick! Our landlord wants to sell this house, so we gotta get out. We're moving to a much smaller house, but it has its perks too. The fenced in yard is my favorite part, I won't have to tether the kids to me anymore!
Donnie bought me a Wii, and Wii fit. It's fun, actually. And a really great workout, believe it or not. To you, you're just playing a game...but you're really burning calories.
Ooooh-kay, I gotta go diffuse a situation between the children before they kill each other...see ya later!

I'm Baaaaa-ck!

Hello people of the internet! Life is good, things are looking up. I am currently making fish sticks and french fries for dinner...the all american dinner!
Today has been interesting. I had a fight with my 4 yr old about finishing the food she's given, and she said she hated me and then actually tried to walk out the front door. Then she spent a suspiciously long amount of time in the bathroom and when I asked her what she was doing she replied that she was "looking for the toilet". And then my son discovered that if you blow into a straw instead of suck through it, it makes bubbles! And a huge mess for mom, because there was no lid on that cup....
Anywho, I'm watching Judge Judy yell at people and I thought I would give you an update. I'll see you real soon!!

hiya

I know I've been absent lately...just going through some personal things at the moment. Love you all!
Oh yeah, and I pulled a handful of crayons out of the produce drawer in the refrigerator today!

new meds working great!!!

I've been put on Lyrica, which is the drug specifically for fibromyalgia.
Actually, I take the generic, gabapentin. Anyway, it's wonderful! Starting the first day it just made me a different person. I'm happy, more energetic, my house is very clean...as opposed to the mess it was a few days ago! I feel like a new me...actually I feel like the old me!
I'm still taking ambien, and norco, and paxil too. But the Lyrica is the best drug I've ever taken!
I have an ultrasound scheduled next week for the lump in my neck. I was supposed to go this morning but guess what? We got like 7 inches of snow!!!
We took the kids out and played in it for a few minutes. Aidan didn't know what the hell to think. He just kept walking around, and then he would fall face first and just lay there...not even trying to get up. It was weird. Of course we were right there to get him.
Soooooooooo, my doc has put me on a strict 1500 calorie diet. Today I have done well with just under 1300, but I can tell you it is hard!!! But I know the ends justify the means, so I'm optimistic and ready to go!
Suppose that is all for now. I love you, my faithful readers!!!

Boooooooooooored

I am bored. Bored. Booooooooooored. Like I may actually clean out of boredom. Now that's bored! So bored I may organize the refrigerator. So bored I may try to break the worlds record for throwing a ball against a wall over and over. So bored that I may actually PAINT MY TOENAILS. That, my friend, is bored. So bored that I may alphabetize something. So bored that today might be the day that I actually start exercising regularly. Booooooooooooooored.