My toothache is getting much, much worse. The pain is radiating down my jaw and up into my ear. I can't sleep on that side of my body. The 28 Vicodins the dentist gave me last Tuesday are gone. They've been gone for awhile, actually. I always overdo my pain pills because..well..they make me feel good. I have like 10 tramadols left until my next dr.'s appt on Tuesday...but those might as well be sugar pills. I have about the same amount of Xanax, and I guess I could take all of them and knock myself out but then what good would I be? I have two babies I need to take care of.
I know I have a problem taking my pills the right way. But in my heart of hearts I really don't see it as abusing them in any way. I see it as I NEED them to function. My body just naturally needs more than the recommended dose to get any relief.
So now I'm sitting here twiddling my thumbs and swabbing OraJel all over my mouth, waiting for Tuesday to come. My next appt with my general practitioner. And I hope and pray that he will give me something stronger than Tramadol this time...and I think I'm going to ask him to double my Xanax because I'm on the lowest possible dose and I don't notice much of a difference.
I don't know guys, do I come off sounding like an addict, or do I have a legitimate reason for wanting these pills?
Friday, May 8, 2009
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